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I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone

She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?

I've been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn't keep us warm

I've been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

All the people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you up inside

I wanna be happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if you don't love me anymore
Even if you don't love me anymore

(song by: india arie) The Heart Of The Matter

lagu ini mendengung di hati di kala ruang masa lalu menhantui bagai badai di siang bolong, dan saat ini sebenarnya aku tersentak dalam diam. terkaget dengan lugu, mengapa rasa rindu? yaa rasa itu yang ku sebut rindu, mengapa dia hadir di sini, di waktu yang tak tepat ini.

datang dengan tenang dan berhasil membuat jam malam ku tegang minta di tenangkan. sedangkan ketenangan itu ada di dalam hati sebuah pria yang ingin ku tutup kisahnya.

menertawakan ku dengan sangat sempurna, rasa itu tak kenal waktu, rasa itu tak kenal aku..

andai ia tau, andai saja..

rindu ini yang dulu selalu kami nikmati bersama,